Now why would some individuals sleep when everyone is busy worrying about exams? Differential diagnoses?
1. They are just too &$%#@ smart to care. To them, we are idiots for worrying too much. 2. They burnt the midnight oil last night and developed bilateral ptosis(drooping eyes) the next day. 3. They had a heavy lunch, thus oxygen is diverted to their stomach instead of their brains. 4. "Exams? Got exam-meh?" denial-syndrome. Either that or they really don't know. 5. They don't have exams to worry about!!
You can tell how stressed out I am. I should be studying for my written paper tomorrow, but I'm here blogging 'rubbish'. I feel like screaming right now. It's crazy to study everything from the heart to lungs to stomach to liver to kidneys to brain to muscles to nerves to the-stupid-big-toe-with-gout in 4 weeks!
How did my practical exam go? My advice: If at least 3 people warned you to study about stroke for your exam, you STUDY IT ASAP. Because you are digging a huge grave dealing with a stroke patient when you've only studied 2 pages of neurology, and that 2 pages only covered meningitis!
And always be prepared for a last minute notice that your exam will start in half-an-hour's time. Or be smart enough to ask your examiner a week before about when he will have your exam, when he had a history of having exam on a Sunday. I think I must have looked quite angry at the last minute notice, but I was angry at myself for not being prepared, when I really wanted to do well for my Internal Medicine posting.
Oh well, hopefully I can show my full potential in my written paper tomorrow.
You think that I go home at night Take off my clothes, turn out the lights But I burn letters that I write To you, to make you love me
Yeah, I drive naked through the park And run the stop sign in the dark Stand in the street, yell out my heart To make, to make you love me
I am EXTRAORDINARY, if you'd ever get to know me I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary Average every day sane psycho Supergoddess Average every day sane psycho
You may not believe in me But I believe in you So I still take the trash out Does that make me too normal for you?
So dig a little deeper, cause You still don't get it yet See me lickin' my lips, need a primitive fix And I'll make, I'll make you love me
I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary Average every day sane psycho Supergoddess Average every day sane psycho Supergoddess
See me jump through hoops for you You stand there watching me performing What exactly do you do? Have you ever thought it's you that's boring? Who the **** are you?
I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary Average every day sane psycho Supergoddess Average every day sane psycho
Faith. It goes a long way when you believe in it, faith in God, faith in yourself, faith in the ones you love. One day, I'll sing this song to the man I love. And I have faith he'll sing a similar song back to me. Till then, let me say this to you.. I believe in you.
Internal Medicine exam next week. Under stress, yet strangely excited to take up the challenge. We'll see how it goes..
You write the best blog, better than Kenny Sia's ! A multi talented doctor and writer indeed. I like the way you pen your thoughts, in a matured and humorous way at the same time. You give me motivation to be a better person and remind me that God is really a great God, no one else can compare to Him. Thanks for making my day. :)
Ju Lee from Penang
Hi Ju Lee,
Thank you so much for the encouragement. I'm glad that my entries have at least touched your heart. Hope to hear more from you.
Wow.. I'm so motivated. Looks like this blog ain't dying anytime soon. Some people are SO nice!
Oh dear, took me so long to finally find out. The last time I saw him, he was walking slowly (exactly like a snail) to the washroom in the ward. He made a wrong turn and almost entered the treatment room. Luckily the ward sister stopped him and showed him the right way.
I remember being in Semester 6, and everyone in my medical posting group was excited about seeing a patient with acromegaly for the first time. I remember sitting down for 2 hours talking to him. Not just about his disease. We talked about life, studies, his work as a professor in a university, the book he wrote, his wife, his children..
I remember seeing him in tears when he told me his wife left him and his children doesn't want to look after him.
This time in my Internal Medicine posting, it was a joy to see him again, but it crushed my heart to see him so much more weaker than he used to be. But at least he smiled when I greeted him again. I'm not sure whether he remembers me, but as always, he was a kind soul to a meddling medical student.
Thank you for the lessons. You'll be missed.
On a happier note, Happy Father's Day!
Me: Pa, what do you want to do on Father's Day? Dad: Study medicine with you. Me: What-the.. O_o
"SuperDad"
Most of my friends know how great my dad is, and how much he means to me. No need to elaborate-lah..
This is us celebrating half-an-hour before the day ended. Hehe.. talk about celebrating at the last moment. Love ya, daddy!
It's amazing that I've grown so much in the past one year.
I left it all in God's hands. The tears, disappointments and anger was worth it when I know now how strong I am with Him by my side. I've not only learnt how wonderful it is to know that God really exists in my life, that He knows what is best for me but also to see for myself how much more beautiful life is when you learn to forgive and forget. Especially when you've forgiven yourself for your past mistakes, and you are able to move on to a better life from now on.
To finally wake up in the morning, without a problem in life that would bother me, was glorious. I told God, "If a car hits me today and I don't survive, it's ok. Nothing can bring me down now. Not when I'm this happy."
I hope I will never forget this feeling. I hope my feelings will never change. I can't imagine a day living without this feeling. I pray I will forever be faithful.
I looked into my journal and came across this, something I wrote exactly 3 months before this great discovery. As if things were meant to end this way: "God does not short-change. After all the hard work, God will give a reward I deserve. That's what they say. I hope it's true. Dear Lord, I pray for the strength to continue this walk with You. Thank you for what I've learnt today. Amen."
The happiness was too good to be true. But just to show you how much better my life can get, my aunt got me a new phone for my birthday! Which is still in a month's time. Yeah!!
Me: Uncle, on this admission, did you have fever? Patient 1: This admission? No... But last time ah, I got very high fever one. Waa.. that time you know what ah..etc etc etc..
Me: Uncle, how many medications are you taking for your hypertension? Patient 2: Haiyo, I can't remember-lah. The doctor give me this.. then give that.. then one time I go see this traditional medicine man.. he give me this.. then this happened.. than I go here there everywhere.. waah, all this and that bla bla bla.. Me: Huh?! So how many pills are you taking everyday?
There was this patient who had Hodgkin's lymphoma who talked so much after I asked him a question, and I started daydreaming when he was talking, next thing I knew he suddenly went, "Haloo?".. Haha, had to cover up, quickly recovered and told him to continue his story, as if I never drifted off in the first place.
Medicine posting. One minute you happily talking with a patient who had heart failure, 2 days later he goes into respiratory distress, gets intubated and sent to ICU. In the ward I'm in, 2 patients died when I was there, 2 went into respiratory distress, 1 ended up in coma and 1 dumb alcoholic decided to pull his IV drip out by himself and ended up with blood dribbling onto his bed and floor. All in 5 days. 15 more days to go. What more will come?
I love it so much that when I was a small girl, I told my father that I'd marry a guy who proposes to me with donuts instead of a ring.
That dream stopped when I realised how valuable jewellery was :p
But I'm still happy when someone gives me donuts.
I found a new donut shop in The Curve. Big Apple Donuts.
They were having a promotion, if you bought a dozen donuts, you'd get 6 for free! Now who was I to resist temptation? Even Dunkin Donuts didn't give such a great deal!
There were so many choices, I just asked to have one of each type.
But to my disappointment, the free 6 donuts I got were just the normal sugar-glazed donuts. Haloo! Dunkin Donuts let us choose the free donuts we want! I demand freedom of choice!
Anyway, when I got home, I sat staring at the donuts, dying to eat all of them, trying to figure out which I would eat first and which I would eat last..
What I found stupid was that I had to cut each donuts into half (except the free ones) so that I could share the donuts with my brother. *sigh*
The verdict? YUMMY!! I think I'll be betraying Dunkin Donuts for awhile, because Big Apple donuts reminds me of the JCo donuts that I tried in Jakarta. And it's great that you can heat the donuts, so that you can have that 'oven-fresh' taste instead of cold donuts.
Next issue, I have a FAT ass. Need to watch my diet and exercise more. The month of June will be my "Get rid of lazy ass" month. Hopefully July will be "Hot ass in miniskirt" month, just in time for my birthday.
Oh man.. sometimes I surprise myself by how dumb I sound on my blog. And I'm supposed to be a future doctor. What did I do to myself?
