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Why did I choose medicine?!

Sunday, August 17, 2008

To my girlfriends

Dear friends,

I'm writing this to my close friends who I have not been keeping in touch with for so long. So many whom I've forgotten to call, didn't reply to their phone messages or e-mails, cancelled appointments with.. I'm sorry I've been out of touch.

How's life? How are each of you doing? Please tell me.. I may be busy with work, but I do wonder how everyone is doing everytime I think of you guys. I wish there was a way we could all meet. I really miss hanging out with all of you.

How about me? The best news I have is that I can finally move out of my hostel, which honestly is a good place to stay, but the problem with the place is that my parents can't come to my place and stay over. And I can't cook in my hostel or put a fixed phone line for internet. It's expensive to use my Celcom Broadband. I'll be renting house now, located in one of the nice housing areas here. It's really nice and I'll be living there alone next month onwards until I can find one housemate. The place has good security and my neighbours are great (all families), so don't worry about my safety. I promise I'll be careful. When my place is all set up, all of you can come over cos I'll definitely have a room to spare.

Another good news is that I'll be taking a few days off to go to Cambodia with new friends early next month. One of them is a fellow houseman and another is one of my medical officers. I can't wait for the trip. It's a good thing for me to go cos I know my later postings will be busier and I might not be able to take leave so easily. This is me taking every opportunity possible.

I'm working in the female ward now. And I really love it. Despite the fact that now I have to take care of double the number of patients that I had in the male ward during on-calls, I find it less stressful because I don't get patients with severe head trauma after a 'mat rempit' session or an alcoholic coming in vomiting massive amount of blood. After more than a month since I've started work, I've finally found a group of girlfriends I can hang out with. And they are fellow houseofficers like me in my ward. We all watch out for one another. Its wonderful when you have a friend who calls you during your call just to check whether you're doing ok, and it's a blessing when you have one who tells you that you can always call them if you really need help. Trust me, those kind of houseofficers are hard to find. I thank God everyday since I've changed wards that I've finally found girlfriends who treat me as a friend, not just as a workmate.

If you're wondering how I find working life, I wish I knew how to describe it to you. Despite being in a big hospital, it's still lacking in so many ways. You'd think that alot should be available for the patients who come to this hospital, but it was an eye-opener to find out how much they were not getting. One day when we do meet up, I'll tell you all the things I've been through. But overall, I love working as a doctor here. I hate the stress, but I would never want to be a medical student again, standing by the side as a spectator. It's great to be part of a team, contributing to a cause.

And yes, if you're wondering, I'm still single and available..heehee.. but not that no one's interested. A fellow female houseman tried to hint to me that someone likes me.. but me being me, I just ignored it, knowing that I'll act all weird around that person if I believed what she said. I was asked out once by a medical officer, but I didn't accept because of him being Muslim, me being Christian. Plus he's a self-conceited idiot. Next thing I knew, he's actually married with 2 small children. Can you imagine that?! How disgusting. Anyway, it's only been 2 months since I've started work, did you really expect me to be a hot item on the market as soon as I started work? I think most people think I'm just a plain-looking quiet girl when they see me at work. Not that I mind it. You guys know me, I'm in no rush to be in a relationship, eventhough my mother is probably praying everyday that I'd get married soon.

I really miss you guy. I never knew how much pain it was to not have your close girlfriends around to talk to until I started work. I think there were times I was in tears because I was wishing you guys were here. But I'm A-OK now because of all the good things I've told you so far. But I still wish all of you were here. I really like life now, I truly feel blessed. I am now the person I've always wanted to be, a self-sufficient independent woman. I have a place of my own, a car of my own, earning my own money, a job I'm passionate about, friends I can count on, and I truly believe it's only a matter of time until God blesses me with a guy who'll be the perfect match. Haha. It's great knowing I am able to take care of myself and my family. I hope everyone is as happy and content as myself.

I hope everyone's doing great. Do keep in touch *hugz*

Much love,
Sha

posted by Sha @ 10:08 PM

3 Comments:

At 11:18 AM, linda_tjo4 said…

awww....I miss u so much I could kiss u rt nw..hehehe...

Anyway, update from me:
I'm good here in Brisbane. Got a job secured for next year already. It's not in Brisbane though. Bout 2 hour flight away. I'm still kinda excited cz I've heard good things bout the hospital. The only thing I have to worry bout is this rotation's exam (end of nx month), and final exam. wish me luck and please give me tips to study 'medicine'. sigh..

All in all, I'm good. and missing u and the rest of my girlfriends too.

muaxx
At 8:48 PM, yeoslian said…

i miss you too :) really enlightening to read your post, although this was quite some time ago :) hehe.. thank God you have good friends/colleagues who look out for you! God is good :) as for me, i'm kind of alone, as there are only about 4 non-malays, and they are not in my ward :D but otherwise, i'm happy God has blessed me with this experience :) and WHO says you're not a hot item?! remember what my sis said about you? she thought you were CHINESE, and a hot one on that :P LOL.. i think you rock, for all that matters, and i'm certain you will Mr Right will find you soon- otherwise, your mum will :D Take care dear, and regards to everyone in sban ;) God bless always *hugz*
At 1:11 AM, Anonymous said…

dear Sasha, I don't usually read blogs but had stumbled into yours by accident. I just want to thank u for being such an encouragement to me, just by blogging what you have gone through since you started working recently. Actually on second thought, it wasn't so much of what u went through that motivated me, it was ur attitude towards it. So I hope I am giving u abit of encouragement as well when I tell u how much I am blessed from reading this entry and the one before it. Take care and God bless.