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Friday, April 27, 2007

Types of medical students

I am a final year medical student. One more year to go out into the real world and save lives. Or end up killing someone.

I am so stupid. Despite all the studying, I still feel as dumb as I was when I first started clinical school. And all this while I imagined being quite knowledgeable by time I hit the 5th year.

"Your knowledge is there but I don't think it's good enough to pass your Semester 9."

Oh man. Today prayer did not help me at all. But I figured God wanted reality to hit me. Hard.

I don't think I failed my surgery exam. But I sure don't think I'll be so lucky in my finals if I don't buck up. It's moments like these I sit down and wonder why I chose this profession. What in the world made me think I was good enough to be a doctor and heal sick people?

*slap myself*

I guess better know how bad I really am now while I have the time to improve myself than be overconfident and find out too late that I was not good enough.

I'm in paediatrics now. The bad thing, the amount of studying I need to do in 4 weeks has increased. The good thing, my daddy is around to help me!! My dad couldn't help me with surgery, but now that I'm in his field of expertise, hopefully he'll not only share his knowledge with me, but also sit down and work out my weaknesses and find the right studying method for me. What worked in Semester 7 is definitely not working now. Need to make certain adjustments..

I'll show the world I can be a great doctor. Muahahaha..

"Types of Medical Students" from Simple Thoughts

posted by Sha @ 9:40 PM 2 comments

Saturday, April 14, 2007

One tiring stressed out week

Only one man has so much control over me.

Dato K.

Not this one-lah.

Every medical school has a scary, fierce lecturer. Well, so does mine. But luckily, he is as fierce as he is admirable. This man has an aura that can blow you away. When he walks past, you can't help but feel like a great person had just passed you by. And he is a great person, as a doctor, teacher etc.

The only problem I have with him is the amount of stress I get when I'm doing my surgery posting.

If I was in scrubs, everytime this man walks into the hospital, the whole hospital would be on red alert. The lights would turn red, fire alarms ringing, and people running to get their job done before he steps into the ward.

Datuk is coming! Go! Go! Go!!

That was what happened to me on a Friday morning when he decided to have a surprise case presentation. I had to clerk 5 patients in 1 hour!!

2 nights in a row I was clerking patients in my ward, 16 patients to be exact, to make sure that I was ready for my next case presentation. Talk about hard work, man.. to talk to 16 men in 2 days, getting their stories on why were they admitted, finding out their investigation results, writing down what treatment they've undergone.. all because of one man. I have never had so many swear words(forgive me, God) forming in my head so often before this.

When this man walks into the ward, your heart literary stops. You just start praying the day ends well.

When he asks you a question, looking at you.. you can feel yourself shrinking to a tiny person.

But before you get the idea that this 'dude'(haha!) is one mean person, like I said before, he's definitely a great person. Everything you learn from him, you can't find in the medical textbooks. You know his knowledge is all from experience. This is definitely one person you want to learn as much as possible from. So despite the stress, the torture and heart-stopping moments, it's all worth it as long as I learnt something for the benefit of my patients in the future.

But I sure was one lazy bum after his case presentation was over.

IMU Bukit Jalil SRC organized their first 'Inter-Cultural Nite' last night.. it was cool. If one thing IMU students are good at, it's performing. Singing, dancing, music intruments, fashion shows, you name it.. we got it. We even have our own Wushu and Silat team, ok?

I wished we had a inter-cultural event in Seremban, not just the annual 'Deeparaya Nite'. Heck, I'll even wear my stupid Kelabit costume and dance the stupid dance I've been avoiding since I moved out of Ipoh.

Oklah, I take that back. The Kelabit costume and dance is not stupid, it's beautiful. The problem is that I have a problem with it. Too many traumatic experiences from my many dances in my Ipoh school. Oh man, the headache I had.

I'm wondering if this is my cousin..hmm...

posted by Sha @ 9:53 PM 2 comments

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Thanks to YingWei, I got a free facial last Saturday. Woohoo! You know you've hit jackpot when your friends pamper you :)

It was a weird facial though. The girl 'attending' to my face used this small gadget and moved it around my face as if she was shaving my face. It even made sounds like a electric razor!

"This one to take out your dead skin, ya?"

Oh.

Next was, "Now I put shooting cream, ok?"

Since I was half asleep, it took me a few second to realise that she meant 'soothing' cream. Haha, silly me.

I love facials. It's so relaxing until the part they start pinching your pimples-blackheads out. I can't stand it when they hold my nose to take out the blackhead. I'll be worried whether to breath through my nose or my mouth, cos it's just horrible to let someone whose face is so close to my mouth smell my breath!

My cousin, Renai, called me to come to her housewarming. Actually everyone who stayed in her house were in some way 'technically' my cousins. Kelabits being such a small group, it's no surprise that we're all related.

My cousin's so hot.. no? Look out for her on ntv7.

I'm still trying to find my connection with Hannah Tan.

Check out her arms, wei.. is it real??

Medical students should mix with non-medical people. It's so cool to not talk about medical stuff, unless you're trying to impress them with your knowledge. But I'm too stupid, so the last thing I want is to let them find out how stupid. But I do get impressed when they ask me what am I doing, and they go, "Wow.."

People.. it's not that great. Knowing that I have to put my finger in horrible places in a person's body is not my idea of something to "wow' about. But I've done it 3-4 times already.. hehe, boy was I impressed with myself.

L-R: Nazrul aka kakicucuklangit, me, June, Justin (Cleo bachelor nominee 07 - vote4him), Kim, and Nic (ex-Cleo bachelor nominee & in a way another cousin of mine)

Lastly, Surgery rocks! But I'm too tired to elaborate due to long-standing (literary!) case presentations. My salute goes to my intelligent group-mates who not only have the power to stand up for 3 and a half hours straight in the morning, but also for being able to concentrate on his every words and answer all his questions so that he doesn't think we're a bunch of dum-dums. Me? After one hour, I'm thinking of what I'm having for lunch, when I can find time to sleep, what plans I have for the weekend, the meaning of life, why I'm a medical student etc..

posted by Sha @ 12:37 PM 2 comments

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

To Stacey with Love

HaPpY 21st BiRthDaY!!

Many hugs from me.. miss ya!

I can't believe now only you're 'legal'!

Too bad we corrupted you a long time ago.. Muahaha...

Best friends 4eva,

Sha (feeling old at 24)

posted by Sha @ 1:18 PM 2 comments

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